Visualization Exercise. This week I was reading about how Albert Enstein conducted his experiements inside of his mind. I need to spend more time inside my mind “listening.” There are so many tunes, melodies and lyrics dancing around in my mind, just waiting to be released. In such a noisy, busy world it is important to take the time to think, allowing new ideas to birth.
I suppose if you cannot remember a verse to a song you wrote, maybe the verse isn’t worth remembering. I have looked everywhere for my notes (I wrote it back in 2003). So I suppose it is time to write a new verse. Now I have to find the emotional place a I was when I wrote the song. I was dealing with guilt over decisions I had made in my past and was inspired through a bible study group when we were studying Isaiah 61″
New International Version (NIV)
3 and provide for those who grieve in Zion— to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of joy instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the Lord for the display of his splendor.
Grace is a gift I don’t Deserve
Your love has set me free
When I saw your arms opened wide
I came running
I am your child brand new
Changing becoming like you
All the ashes of the past are blown away
Only your reflection remains
Click to hear: Rose
The story behind the song:
I grew up in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints and there are Missionaries who are sent to various parts of the globe. Anyways, as a young woman I, like many others in the church, had a crush on a missionary. It was nothing serious, but it helped inspire this song. Later the song evolved and now paints a picture of love that you can not have, but if you try it can hurt you. Like the other songs I currently have listed on “Nissa’s Music” I recorded them close to my 16th birthday, which was over 20 years ago. Later I wrote additional lyrics that I will add when I get the chance to rerecord the song. The new lyrics add a new element of seduction that I think really will enhance the song.
Often there is some kind of resonating theme bleating underneath the uncarved rock. As pieces of rock are carved away the sounds become more evident and the music begins to take shape and form. Today I decided to work within a chord progression and to my surprise a reoccurring theme that had once plagued me reemerged within a new rhythm with a different feel. I didn’t realize I was revisiting an old idea when I was trying to do something new! I will continue to chip away at this idea and see what emerges beneath the surface.
Sharing my songs is like sharing pieces of my soul. Looking back at lyrics I have written, they touch moments in my life and bring the memories back vividly. When I close my eyes and sing I am time traveling inside my mind. As I write new songs I’m capturing feelings and moments of today. This is more than a picture, because the words and music came from my soul. I wonder will my lyrics and music resonate with someone else’s experiences…